The Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can;and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful worldas it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things rightif I surrender to His Will;That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with HimForever in the next.Amen.

In The Blink Of An Eye

How could it have gone so wrong so fast? Sometime after midnight I got the call, Her innocent Beautiful Daughter of 4 found her half naked passed out on the bathroom floor.
"I'll be rite there"
It felt like infinity as I drove the mile and a half to get to her home where I found her alive but barily coherent, this beautiful child of mine I had left just a few hours earlier. We had an almost perfect day. I love her so much...
I knew she needed help beyond what I could offer her, but first we needed to make sure the children were out of the house and safe.
I never knew the pain I would feel in the next few hours, the hateful words, the grabbing, the kicking, my body hurts all over from it, I finally got her to DETOX but not without a fight, I will never forget the feeling of leaving her there. Oh My GOD how she hates me rite now. I love her so much...
I haven't heard from her today, I really didn't expect that I would, but I hoped, I prayed. Throughout the day my Beautiful innocent Granddaughter would say "I miss my Mommy" "When can we go home"
There has to be a rainbow at the end of her rainstrom. She is so beautiful. I love her...

Life's Realities

It's 12:17 a.m. & I should be sleeping, My alarm will go off at 5:00 a.m. but I can't fall asleep. So much is going through my head rite now. I am emotionally exhausted! But at the same time I feel I had a successful day.

She now knows that I know pretty much everything, I am relieved as I am sure she is. I want to be there for her, I want to help her through this process. She is such a beautiful young woman with so much potential, so much life ahead of her.

I will continue to do what I can. I know she can pull through this. This is not by any means going to be easy, I know we still have some hard falls to go through but "I Promise I will be there EVERY step of the way" I Love You...

Once Upon A Time

My name is Debra Ann (Mares) Guevin. I was born to Gilbert & Rita Mares on what I now know to be Saturday November 16, 1963 In Raton, New Mexico. I was the 4th child out of 5.
Joyce Ann (Mares) Archuleta, Carol Ann (Mares) Archer, Gilbert Lawerence Mares, Me & My baby brother, Richard Demetro Mares.
I grew up in Trinidad, CO that is where my baby brother was born.
I went to Eckhart Elementry School in Kindergarden, 3rd & 4th Grand, I attended East Street Elementry School in 1st & 2nd grade. I attended 5ht & 6th grade at I think it was called Rice Middle School. Attended Trinidad Junior High School & Graduated in 1982 From Trinidad High School. I recieved an Associates Degree in Early Childhood Education from Trinidad State Junior College in 1984.
My parents divorced when I was I think about 8 years old. I will never forget the day he left...
When I was 10 my Mother (God rest her soul) went through as I remember a pretty intense alcohol treatment & she did it! She once recovered never took another drink in her life.
She raised the 5 of us the best she could.
I became a Mother at the age of 15, 5 days before my 16th birthday, My life was forever changed. I named my Son Edward Lawerence Mares & Oh how I loved my new baby! My song to my Son Edward...

Maybe it's intuition

but some things you just don't question

Like in your eyes, I see my future in an instant

and there it goes,

I think I found my best friend

I know that it might sound more than a little crazy

But I believe...

I knew I loved you before I met you

I think I dreamed you into life

I knew I loved you before I met you

I have been waiting all my life.

There's just no rhyme or reason

Only the sence of completion

And in your eyes, I see

The missing pieces I'm searching for

I think I've found my way home

I know that it might sound more than a little crazy

But I believe...

I knew I loved you before I met you

I think I dreamed you into life

I knew I loved you before I met you

I have been waiting all my life.

A thousand Angels dance all around you

I am complete now that I've found you

I knew I loved you before I met you

I think I dreamed you into life

I knew I loved you before I met you

I have been waiting all my life.

I knew I loved you before I met you

I think I dreamed you into life

I knew I loved you before I met you

I have been waiting all my life.

Savage Garden

My son will be 30 years old on November 11, 2009, he was born in 1979 in Trinidad, CO where he still lives.

The Winter of 1983 I met a young man in College & we started dating, we were married the Summer of 1984, We had our 1st Daughter Mary Virginia on Feburary 4, 1985, we had Victor John on February 18, 1986 & Karen Elizabeth on March 16, 1987.

In May 1985 we moved to Grand Junction, CO which would become the hometown for Victor & Karen. It was my 1st home away from home. Wow did I miss my family, but I was ready to start a new life. Little did I know the changes that were to come.

We divorced the Summer of 1987 it was final January, 1988.

I decided Grand Junction was now home.

We Wish

We Wish because we need help & we're scared & we know we may be asking to much, We still wish though because sometimes they come true.